>Since russians often meashure others by their iternal understading on our own mentality - when we see other mentality we may suspect "it's probably a lie to trick us".
I don't even know what this is supposed to mean.
And what I was referring to is a sort of Russian positivism and progressive outlook on society and the world, even if a sort of prideful one.
See this is a thing that is especially hard to explain for me because it's like when I hear a Frenchman speak, he says all the words but the song is completely different to American hurr durr muh freedoms sort of, not optimistic, but like a weird type of idealism even if sometimes cynicism masquerading as idealism, and a true and genuine belief in, something I guess. I think it borrows from the fact we are revolutionary cultures although so is France but something is just missing whenever I think of French people speaking about things like society. It is like they are more fake and plastic about it, they say the words but the song is different, yet when a Russian speaks like Lenin or that dev, it strangely may not even be the right words but the tune is so eerily similar to our own.
I think that when you see things like the Russian space program, that speaks very much to this ideal, as well as the misguided attempt at inflicting Soviet style Communism on the world because they truly believed in it, even if often the leadership did not.
I've been reading about Russian Communists and Communism and one thing struck me is first off yes, there are much darker, more cynical, more pragmatic things about it but in Afghanistan with the Khalq for example. There is just something there about their very vision of "building Communism" itself which just strikes me as a kind of eerily familiar mindset which I cannot describe that vaguely reminds me of this deep undercurrent in American thought and psychology, like a lilt of hopeful optimism in the future and poetry and romance mixed with a stern inward conviction that frankly I don't see in a lot of societies and cultures.
I have not read them but it makes me think of much of what I have heard of famous Russian writers, like Tolstoy and Dostoyevsky, Solzhenitsyn and Pushkin. There is a strange almost blind idealism to it and this vague frankly almost American sense behind things like "building Communism" and tearing down the Tsars and creating this prosperous, free and progressive sort of utopian society they seemed to envision. I do not doubt for a second that most of the Politburo were psychopaths, but even in that I just keep hearing this strange voice, this strange alien yet deeply familiar voice I have not heard elsewhere, and it is a voice sounding identical to that Pathologic 2 dev who expounded upon such a thing that normally any Westerner--or hell anyone else franly--would simply approach as "lol it's just entertainment dude chill out" and see it as no more than an empty amusement to make them money.
You too--you personally--often sound this way to me. When you describe games and the games you like it sounds almost as if there is both a poetry and a conviction underlying it all, a sense that may be both incredibly rigid, stubborn, and prideful, but is like an iron conviction in something out of an ideal nonetheless. I hope I am not sounding like so much nonsense but perhaps others outside Russia will know what I mean by all this and what is that Russian voice.
Well I just told you some. I also feel as though I'm going to end up losing quite a bit in non-annotated English translations, however I've yet to figure out a better and more efficient scheme than "ring up the CIA and ask them to pay my Russian language classes YOLO" or some phone app which I doubt would teach me anything. Alternatively I could just get a few hard copies of Russian literature to read and deal with it being translated which is 95% most likely.