Hello Ernst,

Today the topic also, is unironically, very Ernst.

I got hacked browsing the darknet, my Screen/Microphone on the PC and Camera on my phone have been monitored, etc.

Apparently my Browser had been "fingerprinted", whatever that means. By tracking my IP they poached me on a VoIP program on the clearweb as a group and started bullying and gaslighting me.

I also am often sleep deprived and was in a very malleable state of mind at that time, my mind had in order to cope with the situation come up with a reason for why it was happening;

They were trying to help me, I'm a detestable person and they're helping me change.

I managed to snap out of that "Psychosis" the next day but made the mistake of allowing myself to think that the abuse was also a result of my temporarily altered state of mind. Big mistake.

The first time it happened the belligerents were native english speakers, the second time however, they were german speakers. I speak both languages so I could 100% tell the difference between a foreigner and a native speaker of each respective language. What struck me as more than peculiar was that they knew everything about me, I only found out then that I had been spied upon.

The moment I got this funny feeling inside that I was being gaslit I googled

"Screen and microphone being spied on"

Whilst being in the same channel as them, I put it off as paranoia and continued to look for a film to watch, and then coincidentally one of them gave ma a suggestion. I was amazed at witnessing such a coincidence. Don't misunderstand, I was still suspicious because they were acting strange, but I was putting it off as it being their idiosyncrasies, and I needed the "radio" in the background so I wouldn't become even more asocial, long story short; it happened again.

Afterwards I "ran" into some virtual acquaintances who somehow knew what happened and they were acting weird, like they had been different people for 3+ years all along. Turns out, they were. I tolerated, even liked having them around because of the alternative that would have been solitude. I always thought of them as dumber than average bydlos who couldn't help themselves, didn't know any better, when they insulted one another, displayed cringy tics or attacked me verbally, so I just accepted it. I now understand that they had been pretending to accept me in their circle all along, with something like this in mind and I feel kind of autistic for not realizing it, not wanting to. It was out in the open all along but I couldn't see. I feel really violated.

Had to share this somewhere, sorry

Have a nice day.

Fuck image orientation, I shall proceed regardless.

kek I enjoyed seeing my old posts, here are the new watches.

1st Rotary black face
It has a 4th dial which spins the tachygraph, I have no idea why.
I like and don't like this watch, since I had a limited opportunity I wasn't going to let this pass, also apart from the rear of the case outside is all black and back to the thick dial, nice to wear with the extra weight, dare I say great this watch will grow on me cost £95-120 can't recall.

2nd Rotary blue face, leather strap
This may be my favourite, but not going to replace the strap just yet, thick dial, like the look of this one, still prefer the one with Nato strap, cost £95-120 mixed up the prices with these two

3rd Sekonda, two tone, black face.
cost £30, classic British dad watch, price too cheap to say no, strap feels cheap, but does the job and I like the extra variety.

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Does Ernst celebrate holidays?
If so, how often and with whom?

I ask because I was thinking about Christmas celebrations the other day, and realized that I celebrate fewer holidays these days. Most holidays I just end up working, especially since my night shift makes the actual impact of a day of socializing, reflection, and rest less meaningful. I also used to celebrate some holidays with my Dad's side of the family, but due to lack of interaction I only celebrate with my Mom and Stepdad's extended family.

I've also noticed that due to work/time constraints by many members of the family, we rarely celebrate the holiday on the proper day, but instead move it to the weekend before or after. This was rarely the case in the past, but is now the norm.

Basically, I celebrate the following:
New Years - Alone/online, the last few years working on Gachimuchi collabs and the like
Easter - With Mom and sometime Stepdad's family
Mother's Day - Mom and Stepdad, and visiting Grandma in the nursing home (she has advanced Alzheimers, visit her regularly regardless)
Father's Day - Sometimes with Dad and Stepmom
Fourth of July - Rarely with Dad and Stepmom
Thanksgiving - With Mom and Stepdad's family
Christmas - With Mom and Stepdad's family