I think that the potential is here. There's a lot of foreign film and literature recommendations for example. That in its own right is a step above most other places. I'm not saying this place is some bastion of intellectualism but what made old KC "good" was it at least had an above average IQ. The idea is to go in the opposite direction until everything feels way over your head. The problem is most other *chans are going the other direction to being as infantile and moronic as humanly possible.>>10584
>I too, used to believe that there was this permanent wall that separated me from normal society, and that I was fundamentally unable to function within normal society.
The latter is the problem if these people actually believe this. It is also merely a reflection of the age group. It's nothing new or novel. It's just the typical idiotic teenager bullshit. You guys remember goths? It wasn't even that long ago and this was basically pre-internet. That whole subculture was built on angst and teenage alienation for the most part. This is true of just about any youth subculture which revolves around concepts of identity and belonging, and of course youthful alienation.
That being stated,
> used to believe that there was this permanent wall that separated me from normal society
I have always felt this way somehow and shitheads on the internet aren't much different. It just gives me a new group from which to feel quietly alienated. That has little to do with how one perceives things outside themselves or their ability to at least act the part, however much the internal perspective may be radically different in which case the key thing to keep in mind is just body language and having enough intelligence to skirt by it. Of course, my reasons have little to do with the internet to begin with, and while I often have little trouble socializing with people it is normally an excruciating experience and I hate it. Being drunk doesn't even help much. You can only get so blindingly drunk before all remaining ego mechanisms have been eroded to confront you with that radical self honesty, that you don't care about these people, these people are not your friends, you have little in common with these people, and in fact you feel nothing but an overall lingering contempt for these people.
This is what I experience most of the time when sitting in a bar. The sheer baseness and coarseness of others is appalling, as well as their generally idiotic behavior, puerile beliefs, and selfish motives bereft of the slightest shred of decency, dignity, or honesty. It is that feeling where you see a "friend" with one arm around the waist of a girl on the other stool while he's sitting with his girlfriend. The problem is I think permavirgins only get butthurt that they're not that guy. I have an overarching loathing for much of humanity because at that base level this is what they are, and moreover they are seldom good conversationalists to make up for it.
People will have all manner of costumes and contrivances to delude both themselves and others that they are somehow more moral, intelligent, refined, or advanced than some disgusting peasant jeering at a witch burning, or the same vicious imbecile who sits atop a throne. Few are willing to puncture this and they cleave likewise unto some false, vain identity construct in a social context. It is why stripping a person down to their nakedness is so "dehumanizing" in a penal sense, for much the same manner as admitting the naked emperor is in fact not wearing any clothes, for it is admission of the obvious truth not merely about others but about ourselves. This is one large reason why people get so incredibly butthurt when challenged on their beliefs, namely, that they feel as though their social worth, status, and very identity is being challenged to reveal itself as nothing but a ruse.
I lastly resent the shit out of other people for sort of forcing me to constantly cloak myself around them to feign some sort of togetherness or assimilation into their pathetic idiotic groups. I particularly loathe unintelligent people especially the sort who want enforced groupthink with a fiery passion for those reasons.