Actually to expand on that what I mean is that in a lot of ways Russia reminds me of more like a greyer, sadder, not more soulful per se but more depth and FAS riddled version of the US. It's a kind of hard thing to explain that I often feel like very few people would get not either being us, or having been heavily involved in us the way that the Ukrainians, Poles, Canadians, Mexicans, especially Germans, or whoever else it is who has had to suffer dealing with us both the Russians and Germans frequently and being well read enough to understand either country.
Like when I look at my superficial understanding of Socialism I've been coming to realize that it's kind of like us and our founding principles and ideology, but that focused much more instead on economic emancipation, whereas ours I think relied more on a political one, and the brutal terrible irony that I think without the one you cannot have the other.
Let me just tell you flat out that freedom doesn't exist in this country. It just doesn't. It really truly doesn't and anyone who believes otherwise is a Homo Americanus indocrinated idiot on the level of Homo Sovieticus. Corporations rule our country and the only way you can even get on the ballot is by being obscenely rich.
It was never meant to be this way. Or maybe I am still incredibly naive and it always was, and that is precisely what was meant by only property owning males being allowed to vote, with I think an implicit understanding among more radical members of our government and maybe even certain Freemasons that this was to be a more gradual process for the emancipation of people both here and later elsewhere. The commie ideology just keeps giving me this same sort of haunting feeling, as if encountering a distant ancestor or, not ethnic cousin, almost like if an alien was engineered by the same precursor civilization as bioengineering us. It is as though they expected to have economic emancipation without the political, as though the one would follow the other, and I think that both our systems have proven that utterly wrong. Your voice just doesn't count here unless you are already massively wealthy. All the Murdochs and Bezos and Bransons or whoever out there are all that counts.
Hell even when we get someone on the ballot there's so much chicanery it's a blatant farce in our faces, like watching what happened to Ron Paul in the RNC, or Bernie Sanders in the DNC, and then in just the last 20 years 2 of the 5 last elections saw the guy who lost the popular vote get installed. Then the masses get plunged into vicious internecine kulturkampf with it switching every 4-8 years of which color tie the same sort of liberty eroding corporatist stooge of Israel and KSA gets to dick us because if it were the same color tie for longer than that people would finally figure things out and stage a bloody overthrow. My vote just doesn't count and I keep wondering if this is how people felt in CCCP, that even if you're an apparatchik that you ultimately don't matter and that knowing this made them act like even bigger petty tyrant dickheads to everybody the way all manner of middle management and bureaucrats act in my country.
But even still I can't help but wondering if Russia and it's allied republiks or whatever one could call the allied territories (I'm still not entirely clear on what the difference was between the status of Ukraine versus say Poland or Hungary, and the amount of independence each had and the certain latitude they were given to manage their own affairs, like goulash Communism, or Ceacescu's Communism, or whatever) could've been on a much better and different path had Stalin simply been murdered in his sleep. But then again, could Russia have even successfully defended itself? Or is le stronk man of steel just a meme that churka someone got even Westerners to think, and that he was, much like Hitler, kind of a complete fuckup who harmed his war effort more than helped? Could the Soviets had won if Stalin never rose to power? And what of Trotsky? Would he have been an even worse leader?
I just keep getting this odd idea that had Stalin have never been the one in power that Russian Communism might've never gone down the dark path it did and that, as a result, they never would've been burdened with having to rehabilitate people or have an ongoing mentality of oppression, torture, and murder being okay, of having gulags everywhere, and instead had pushed more for genuine freedoms.
I dunno it's just an odd thought. I could be interpreting this all very wrongly because I know little of Communist thought, or its varying strands thereof, so perhaps it could be a thing like arguing which version of Islam is less shitty because they all basically advocate Shariah and the same stuff only in more tolerable and less retarded varieties (except maybe the Sufis they might be legitimately cool). As such, I wish to begin acquiring that knowledge. Why did things go as they did in Russia? What would've happened had major industrialized Capitalist nations tried it, rather than agrarian feudal countries like China and Russia? Was it always doomed to failure on a civil rights level, or did it really have the similar concept of freedoms as American democracy, albeit with a different emphasis starting on a man's toils and economic position rather than political and legal?