I woke up 50 minutes ago, I don't really feel fully comfortable writing a post yet. Slept 01:30-09:00. Weak pulse, low body temperature on wake up. Chugging some cigarettes without eating seems to help with the pulse thing but I know it aint smart.>>3458
3mg melatonine 45 minutes before sleep, buy something good not the cheap stuff. If it wont work try 1,5mg and just cut the pill in half. Don't use any time release melatonine. If it works you will definitely feel it, a sluggish, sleepy state of mind. On comparison 5mg gave me short breath and a light headspin. Also when you pop the pill make the triple melissa, it has a very mind calming effect, very helpful in falling asleep if you are not the meditative state of mind type of guy. Leave the tea bags in until you drink it and put a plate over the cup when it brews so it's as strong as it can get. Drink it the second you feel the melatonine coming in and go to bed in like 2 minutes. All of these effects go away after max 15 minutes so you have a short time window to take advantage of it. If you do a lot of sugar try to make a 3x combo and have the low sugar slowdown before you go to sleep. Right now I had almost entirely cut the sugar and I don't need the melissa but I would not make it without it in the first two weeks. Report progress. I could probably smoke less cigarettes and I will if something goes wrong but as it is now I can do 15-20 cigs a day without them affecting sleep. Every second day I break and drink 1 litre of cola but I'm well done with it after 19:00.>>3455
Interesting, the only opios I did were prescription xan's and other benzos. Cocaine was never my thing as it was just a different kind of speed for me. Not very comfortable. I was doing a gig as a vj in helsinki and one guy gave me a line of coke and the only thing I could think about was WERK for like 5 hours. After the gig at 6am they told me they never had a vj stay for so long ever. I had heavy heatenings the next day that I acted like a fucking robot instead of just enjoying what I do, and I'd believe that I fucked up if they wouldn't ask me to do more. Ever since I remember I had this mindset of whatever I do I'm doing bad.
I did mostly copious ammounts of mdma, some betakations because they are very popular in Poland, mephedrone clephedrone et cetra. I would usually get mild psychosis at 5-6am if I overdone mephe, I know it's fucking dumb and all but due to how I carried my life these were the only people left for me at the given time (or atleast I felt that way) and they were abusing every substance they could. 5 months ago in february I stopped entirely, after 4 days of grinding hard, finishing with doing a hell lot of xans I had left, a night when I had sleep paralysis one after another for entire night and which ended with a very long and abstract quasi lucid dream. When I woke up I felt like I finally understood all of the universe... Needless to say the next day I decided It's time to stop fucking around with opio/amph/betakations.
>uncomfortable fog and feeling of distance from everything
I love it, when I'm in this state I can finally feel at ease. However it works only when I'm alone. When I'm in group which I am not a solid part of I'll feel extra paranoid and anxious.
>2:30-5:00am being in this kind of sentry guardian mindset.
How else am I supposed to feel knowing that If I wont sleep on my side with my eyes covered I have a chance of 15% every time I sleep of getting sleep paralysis since age of 14, you feel me. I've stopped using bed lamp recently hurray me>>3458
try my tips and maybe it'll help youhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JM6lRdPO7So