Do you guys ever feel like when you're out and about that you wish you could inflict violence
upon someone randomly without impunity?
Like kicking in the teeth of some schmuk listening to hardstyle with a fucking bluetooth speaker or the dickhead that doesn't know that the left side of the excalator is only for people who are in a hurry and want to walk manually on top of taking the escalator and not for standing around.
Don't know if these feelings are healthy or not. (Or if they're natural or not.)
I'm in pain. Physical pain.
There is this weird duality. There is mental/soul pain where you can say, I want to die
, because that's the socially/culturally accepted response. But when the body gives you the chance and starts aching, you immediately start looking for any thread to hold onto.
People want to die metaphysically, but not physically.
I thought that's weird.
Anyway, I feel like shit, so I'm embarking on an epic quest to get cured through the Hungarian healthcare system during the time of covid.
I'm getting a bloodwork done tomorrow.
The thing is, I' don't have six months to go on a little holiday in one of the country's hospitals and recover, so I think it's time to step in in advance and prevent a bigger problem.
I think it will be very fun to attend classes with a vial's worth of blood missing.
Then going to work.
Gonna pick up a selection of Sinology essays. It's a book I've been meaning to buy for years.
Strange how work changes your perception of money. It's 1500HUF, roughly 4 euros, and now that I work semi-regularly, it's nothing.
Kinda wish I could stomach a burger. I'd actually pay for one. >>47394
Most kids have "strengths" and "weaknesses", often-times influenced by their environment.
be possible that he's stupid, but it's also possible that he had a no-good son of a bitch maths teacher.
Just try finding out if he's doing well in any of his other subjects.
My sister is good with maths and the visual arts, but can't for her life learn history, literature or a language.
I'm the complete opposite.
People are people. >>47381
I'm gonna burn all right :DRecently I looked it up and even my fucking last name means "restless". Un-fucking-believable.
Really, I'm trying.
Thankfully my "job" is seasonal, so I'll do it this week and maybe next Monday and then nothing until summer.
Weird how I've been doing this job as a student for roughly 4 years now.
Sinofuturism for me actually shows how little I think of the future of the East. I guess that means that even with all the respect and care, my perception is still orientalist, so romantic and probably stuck in the past.
Thanks for the blog. I'll take a look at it during the weekend probably.
(I'll also try getting a copy of blockchain chicken farm, but I don't know how the post fucking works so I'm a bit anxious because I can't order packages to my mother's workplace any more.)