So basically when I say 'kingdom of Heaven' this is the highest state of mind which you or anyone can achieve, according to a scholar named Bill Donahue. However, you can only achieve it thru meditation and from the right side of your brain. This apparently is what Revelations was talking about, it's just a manual for accessing higher frequencies of the mind, including the 'kingdom'.
Now, this brings me to my own point, I feel like this might be the fix I am looking for if my ailments are of a psychological nature. No amount of medication, or help from outside actors, even doctors, could fix this.
Whatever is holding me back, seems to be emanating from the corruption of my mind