Well done m8. Yes, I see drugs as one of the most shallow ways to have fun. I like this framework:
>1st Degree Fun
You are having pleasure in the moment - taking drugs, eating a burger/chocolate, etc.
>2nd Degree Fun
Not necessarily fun at the time, but fun through the sense of achievement and memories - climbing a mountain, learning to play an instrument, etc.
>Third Degree Fun
Something that isn't fun, even in retrospect. However, it's fun to tell the story of how shit it was.
Of course, drugs are very much first degree fun unless you have some transcendental psychedelic experience. So probably least psychologically healthy as it doesn't employ any delayed gratification.
So really, it's 'boring and lowkey' to take your pleasure from drugs as it prevents you from finding fun elsewhere.
This week was tricky for me as I had the heroin and all I could think about was smoking it - but I managed to wait until now. Feels good to have delayed it, otherwise I would have just run out by now.
p.s. r8 what the drugs were stealthed in, this is what our passports will look like after brexit